I am still here

Well the semester is half way over. School is hard but good. Funniest thing is math is my best grade right now...I normally hate Math, but the teacher is so good at her job. Anatomy is kicking my gluteal.
On the home front ......Harry and I are finally there. After years of maybe's and never minds, we are both on the same page and we are looking for a place to live and he is looking for a job here, so we can be together. I am all "girl" about it and just totally smitten. It does make it hard to focus on school, so I think the quicker he can get here the better. It's funny how we have grown so much. I still have to work on the old communication skills and not let my mind make up the stories for me. But we are happy and I feel such peace in his arms, I feel like God is in control and he has gotten Harry and I to this place.

Anyway thats all for now!

a nice break

Just a few pictures from the weekend. Ethan had his first soccer game of the season. After the game we headed to Orlando. Elissa and I went to MGM for night of Joy. Flyleaf is her favorite band EVER. The problem is they are a lot of people's favorite band. So we got there early (2 hours early) and staked our our front row spot. She did great, did not complain even once. Flyleaf came out and I think she cried a little. She knew every word to every song. At one point the lead singer Lacey stood right in front of her and watched her sing. It was really cool. Sunday we woke up early and went swimming before checking out. On the way home we decided to go check out wonder works. It was the coolest place for kids I have ever been to. You can do everything there from feeling hurricane winds, landing a space shuttle, building and riding your own roller coaster, seeing how long you can keep you hands in water that was as cold as when the Titanic sank. You can lie on a bed of nails..and on and and on, three levels of crazy stuff. Anyway it was a great break from the stresses of life.

This is Pat, most of my pictures of him look like this
he rarely stood still. It was raining so I tried to
get pictures and still keep my camera covered impossible

just keep swimming just keep swimming

Three weeks into school now. And it is hard, really hard.
Time with my kids is not near enough, money is not near enough. But the classes are hard enough. The driving is insane. The homework is excessive. And I feel more alive than ever. I feel like I know the plan and I see the purpose and am excited to see it all unfolding each and everyday. My kids have been great. They miss me and it's hard for them but they understand and they encourage me to get my homework done. Ethan likes that he is done with his and I am still having to do mine. They really do understand that I am doing this for all of us. Not sure how the money thing will work out. I have had to give up shifts for classes, so I am pretty much flipping a coin to see which bill gets paid. Even that spurs me on, that's why my butt is back in school.

On another note!
When Harry and I spilt up five years ago. He walked down a path that he took on purpose to get away from God. More than I wanted him to come back to me I wanted him to come back to God. I knew nothing would be okay w/o him and God being okay. Well that man now goes to church more than I do. And last week he put out there that he has really been praying about what God would have him do. I was done yall. I was mad and hurt and just done. But I still see him in songs and in day dreams. I still see him in the role he was meant to stay in. I was kind of mad because I wanted to be done and I just could not stop thinking about him, then he tells me he has been praying about our family. So dang it! God, I have prayed that for how many years!!!
Anyway I am not questioning it I am not analyzing it I am not even really talking about it. I am going to be still and wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and so it begins

I am all signed up for 15 credit hours. Life has to change for the Behrs! My goal is a year of pre-requisites then next fall enter the physical therapy assistant program. I want to try and use this blog as a journal for the journey. I know it is going to be hard, but being a single mom is hard, going through divorce is hard, living on a servers income is hard. My support system is in place, and I know I will have the help I need to do this. Oh and Jennifer Light don't be surprised if I call you for some help in anatomy. So here we go!!!

On another note, my son can mow the grass now. He is growing up so fast.

Ten reason why

Hard to believe my Boy is now 10. So to honor that here are
Ten reasons why I love ETHAN
10. He would rather give than receive
9. He is the best big brother. He makes
sure Elissa wins as much as he does
8. He has a level of compassion that
amazes me.
7. He respects his parents, even when
he disagrees.
6. He plays with my hair, and likes to
snuggle, as long as I don't
call attention to it.
5. He plays with others very well. He
will almost always give his friends
their way, without being a push over
4. He is willing to work hard, and try
his very best.
3. He plays video games like a pro
But even better he has learned to
play madden so that I would play with him
(madden is football)
2. He loves everyone without regards
of color or handicap, or any other
thing others my look at as differences
1. Because ten years ago he woke my heart up
He showed me a world that was
closer to God than anything I had
ever known. Ethan continues to be a constant
reminder of God's goodness.

It's what i think

I think Florida is hotter than ever

I think it's odd that it cost 100$ for a doctor to tell you whats wrong and then 8$ to fix it.

I think if you think Jon and Kate should quit their show, then you should quit watching it

I think if you emasculate (to deprive of strength) a man one day he will leave you.

I think people should not eat out if they can not afford to tip well.

I think it is sad how many people want our President to fail.

I think christian radio plays 8 songs over and over.

I think Mary on So you think you can dance is too loud.

I think if you have not walked in someones shoes your opinion of them should be seasoned with Grace.

I think the "fitting in" issue never goes away.

What do you think