So way back when, I posted about possibilities and second chances. http://whateverloribehr.blogspot.com/2008/11/second-chance.html
I have been asked for an update on that post several times. I have wanted to post something on it for a while, but I just never knew what to say. At the start of things all my updates would have sounded like a little girl with a crush. Then as time passed it would have sounded more like a mom who was just too busy to date. Then some confusion and some soul searching. Then maybe a girl who just wants to be pursued, a girl who needs to feel loved. Then they would have started sounding like a girl who knew it was over but could not bring herself to say it. So finally today I can give an update.. It may not be the best day to let emotions get blogged...today I found out I have a side of me that gets hurts and then turns me into a bitter baby mama...
Of course I am not going to pour it all out in blog land. But I will say round two came back to deceit and hurt. So I am moving on and putting the idea of me and Harry out of the rim of possibilities. The kids never knew we were dating or whatever you call it, so thank God they do not have to deal with any crushed hopes.
I have changed so much since we were married but the part of me that has remained the same is that I love God and I trust him fully. Today I am sad of course and today I am fighting that side that wants to cuss him out...........BUT it's all good.. I am fine with moving on. I told God through all of this that I wanted him (God) over anything else, and I wanted any deceit or fakeness or whatever to be made known. And God saw to it that his girl was in the know.
So there is the update.. If you feel like saying a prayer could you just ask that I would win the fight against anger and that Harry.................Well just ask God to .......................Hmmmm Not sure what to say there.
Don't feel like you have to leave a comment on this post I know it's hard to know what to say, and really I am fine and I am trusting God.