So way back when, I posted about possibilities and second chances. http://whateverloribehr.blogspot.com/2008/11/second-chance.html
I have been asked for an update on that post several times. I have wanted to post something on it for a while, but I just never knew what to say. At the start of things all my updates would have sounded like a little girl with a crush. Then as time passed it would have sounded more like a mom who was just too busy to date. Then some confusion and some soul searching. Then maybe a girl who just wants to be pursued, a girl who needs to feel loved. Then they would have started sounding like a girl who knew it was over but could not bring herself to say it. So finally today I can give an update.. It may not be the best day to let emotions get blogged...today I found out I have a side of me that gets hurts and then turns me into a bitter baby mama...
Of course I am not going to pour it all out in blog land. But I will say round two came back to deceit and hurt. So I am moving on and putting the idea of me and Harry out of the rim of possibilities. The kids never knew we were dating or whatever you call it, so thank God they do not have to deal with any crushed hopes.
I have changed so much since we were married but the part of me that has remained the same is that I love God and I trust him fully. Today I am sad of course and today I am fighting that side that wants to cuss him out...........BUT it's all good.. I am fine with moving on. I told God through all of this that I wanted him (God) over anything else, and I wanted any deceit or fakeness or whatever to be made known. And God saw to it that his girl was in the know.
So there is the update.. If you feel like saying a prayer could you just ask that I would win the fight against anger and that Harry.................Well just ask God to .......................Hmmmm Not sure what to say there.
Don't feel like you have to leave a comment on this post I know it's hard to know what to say, and really I am fine and I am trusting God.
6 comments:
You are beautiful. You are strong. God's everywhere. He's been in the past. He's in the present (where you're hurting & ticked). He's in the future (where you're over it all)! Isn't that neat? You will get over this and be a better person after it's all said and done...if that's even possible for you to get any better! I do love you! Oh, and don't worry, I prayed a big ole covering after we talked yesterday hee hee!!
Lori, all I can say is that you are a strong woman. No matter what God will guide you through it all. Take care and thanks for visiting my blog. Be sure to come back again & again! Oh yeah am sending prayers your way too!
i'm sorry that you're hurting but glad you KNOW and don't have to wonder anymore. call me...
I had wondered what happened with that situation, and I praise God that He showed you Harry's true colors before you married him again. Praying for you...and him.
Xandra
Oh, Lori!
I SO want to go right down to your house and take you out for coffee right this minute! I want to hug you and tell you how proud I am of you! I know this season too well. I admire you. You are trusting God, have surrendered your life to Him and He is showing Himself to be the ONLY one to rely on. Keep trusting Him. You are ALWAYS in my prayers. I'm praying He will heal those places that have been hurt so badly. Remember, the anger is just hurt. You are entitled to feel it! Treat yourself well, friend. What can I do for you? I wish I could do something to speed up the process. You are in good hands. Keep relying on Him to do whatever He needs to do to heal you! You'll be okay. You really will! I'm rambling now, but just know that I'm on your side. God is on your side, too!
Hugs to you, Lori!
I love you!
Angie xoxo
p.s. I'm here for you if you want me to call you. You can e-mail me your phone number if you'd like. :)
I don't know what to say but I just wanted to post a comment. I am so . . . sorry that you have to go through this. I just hurt for you. It sounds as if this chapter of your life is finally getting some closure I just hate that it hurts.
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